If I look back at the things I really wanted and I worked so hard to get, I would probably get disappointed because I didn't get most of them. But also in most of them I'm 100% sure I did and gave the best of me and all I could do. I've always thought that my biggest failure would be "cadena" (is kind of girl scouts), I worked so hard in my courses and I tried to make people like me, but still I didn't got in a higher level. If I think about the good thing about that it's that I learned a lot about team-work, camping and I made true friends. I was talking with some of them and they told me something I didn't knew and I sure wasn't expecting. One girl wanted me to work with her. It's kind of complicated to explain, but I worked so hard to get there. Every summer or winter when a camp was over I begged my mom to go to the end because I always thought "maybe this is my time". I always ended up disappointed and sad, thinking maybe the next one. Or maybe it's because I'm not funny as them or because I'm as social as them. But my friends told me she really wanted to choose me, but the older leaders didn't let her.. My friend told me she cried because she was so mad.. they got in a fight because of why they wouldn't let me.. At the end they had the last word, another girl got the chance, and that was my last camp. I always thought I failed so hard there, because I took all the courses and one includes making a big book, like a thesis and I did it.
But I didn't failed, because I made true friends, I learned valuable things and know I know that if I didn't got what I wanted it wasn't because my effort wasn't enough, because someone thought it was enough to fight for it. But in the end destiny had the last word, know I know it was the right one.
I'm not a failure because he quit, because I quit when he did. I never stopped trying until he did, and I realized I had no choice. It wasn't because of me, or because of how I looked or anything, it was him that made the choice to stop fighting for what I thought was worth the fight. Now I know it wasn't worth it at all. And I'm glad he did what he did because I finally realized I deserve better and I deserve someone that will fight for me, because I know I'm worth that.
Life really gave us valuable lessons everyday, some of them might make us feel sad, worthless, stupid and it might make us want to be someone else. But I have to believe that for every bad thing that happens a better and good one will happen next, so you can realize then why things happened the way they did. Whenever something doesn't go like I expect to, it's not a reason to be sad, it's a reason to be faithful that something bigger and better is coming. Here I am being faithful, because I know what my hard work and good heart will bring.
