What if I died right now... What if I lived forever...

I guess it's a common thought, what if I died right now... Who would cry? Who would go to my funeral? Who wouldn't care at all? What if I did nothing with my life? What if I people don't remember me, because I gave them nothing to remember? What if...

I guess those are some of the questions I will never know, just like I will never know a bunch of other things. What I'm doing with my life, what I am doing so people will remember me? what I am doing to leave something good in people? What if the whole point of it, it's not that people remember what I did or who I were... Then what's the point of it then, doing it for myself? So I can leave for 80 years only for ME, then die and leave nothing here. What's the point of living and dying? Is it finding true love, getting married and having children? Is it making all my dreams come true? Is it living for others, like Mother Theresa? Is it just living... ?  Or just existing? What's the difference? What makes a person living his life or existing in his life. What's true happiness?

I guess I don't know this questions, because I didn't even knew how to ask. But what's really the whole point of it? Who really knows what's the point of life? Or what's the meaning?

I guess it will always be one of the biggest doubts of a lot of persons here. And I suppose everyone has their own answer too. What's mine? I'm almost 20 years old and I don't know what I am here for...

I might not know that, but I know what my dreams are...

I want to marry someone I couldn't get tired of being with him and someone I love with all my heart, someone that's also my best friend and my love. I want to marry someone I wake up next to everyday with a smile, knowing I'm the luckiest woman on earth to have a husband like him. And knowing there's no one else I'd rather share my life with.

I want to have kids one day, I know I will love them with all my heart and I will do everything to make them happy and see their dreams come true. I want to try to show someone what life is about, when they will actually show it to me without knowing it.

I want to be a teacher, more than teaching I want to educate. I want kids or people to learn from me, I want to at least leave something in them. I want to help every kid I have, that doesn't have the support and love they need, I want to give it to them. Because every kid deserves to be loved and to be encouraged in their dreams.

I want to make my dreams come true, I want to make the things in my bucket list.

I want to make my parents proud, I want to give in return at least a little bit of what the have given to me.

I want to still be friends with my siblings, and not having family fights. I want us to still be the strong and unite family we are. I want us to still be silly and still share moments and things.

I don't know what the meaning of life is, but I want to leave with a big smile and a open heart.