No sé, creo que todos siempre tienen algo que decir, porque al momento de estar sintiendo te dan ganas de expresarlo, y así como hay gente que lo expresa escribiendo, hay personas que lo expresan dibujando, hablando, con música, deportes, no sé. Todos tenemos una historia, y algo que contar, creo que el detalle es saber cuando y como, con quien y en el medio correcto. Espero que todas las personas que tengan algo que decir, tengan a alguien que las escuche. Todos merecen ser escuchados. Todos tienen una historia, el papel que tomamos en la historia de las personas que conocemos se define en como las tratamos.Monday, May 20, 2013
Escribir por escribir es casi igual que hablar por hablar.
"Si no tienes nada bueno que decir no lo digas", pienso que es una frase que todos deberían de considerar y tener en cuenta que es mejor el silencio a comentarios inapropiados y estúpidos, igual mucha gente sigue hablando por hablar. Hoy me dieron muchas ganas de escribir algo, no sé creo que hay muchas emociones y sentimientos en mi interior y todavía no logro acomodarlas, o todavía no logro como ponerlos en palabras. Pero tenía ganas de escribir, pensé "Voy a empezar a escribir a ver si sale algo y se me quitan las ganas". No esta funcionando porque por lo visto estoy escribiendo puro mugrero sin sentido. Tal vez debería de empezar a escribir ese ensayo que tengo de tarea. O tal vez podría hablar de mi fin de semana. De mi nuevo tetramestre que estoy empezando. De mi nuevo trabajo. De Joao. De mi familia. De Oliver, el huevito de colibrí que encontré en mi patio y nunca nació. De México y su cultura. Igual podría hablar de educación. O de desastres naturales.
No sé, creo que todos siempre tienen algo que decir, porque al momento de estar sintiendo te dan ganas de expresarlo, y así como hay gente que lo expresa escribiendo, hay personas que lo expresan dibujando, hablando, con música, deportes, no sé. Todos tenemos una historia, y algo que contar, creo que el detalle es saber cuando y como, con quien y en el medio correcto. Espero que todas las personas que tengan algo que decir, tengan a alguien que las escuche. Todos merecen ser escuchados. Todos tienen una historia, el papel que tomamos en la historia de las personas que conocemos se define en como las tratamos.
No sé, creo que todos siempre tienen algo que decir, porque al momento de estar sintiendo te dan ganas de expresarlo, y así como hay gente que lo expresa escribiendo, hay personas que lo expresan dibujando, hablando, con música, deportes, no sé. Todos tenemos una historia, y algo que contar, creo que el detalle es saber cuando y como, con quien y en el medio correcto. Espero que todas las personas que tengan algo que decir, tengan a alguien que las escuche. Todos merecen ser escuchados. Todos tienen una historia, el papel que tomamos en la historia de las personas que conocemos se define en como las tratamos.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Es el...
Cuando me di cuenta de que iba a escribir de esto, primero pensé que lo debería de llamar "1 de Mayo", después pensé y me di cuenta de que es mas que una fecha, es el principio de una historia, 1 de Mayo solo fue el primer día de muchísimos. Entonces, ¿1 de Mayo? Si ese fue el día en que Joao me dijo que si quería ser su novia...
Tenía 2 meses de estar saliendo con el, y estoy segura que el se dio cuenta desde el principio cuanto me gusto. 4 semanas antes lo conocí, lo conocí, mas bien lo volví a conocer y pensé, es el tipo de chavo que vale la pena, es el tipo de chavo que ni me voltea a ver. No sé ni como explicar como empece a sentir todo esto por el, tal vez porque al siguiente fin de semana lo volví a ver. Llego a mi casa para la sorpresa de tener un mensaje en facebook, "¿Tienes whatsapp?". No sé, desde ese domingo en la mañana empezamos a platicar y platicar, siempre he sido esa persona que no se abre tan fácilmente, y esa persona que no confía en casi nadie. Pero había algo diferente en el y estaba en lo correcto. Me deje llevar, siendo yo misma. Paso una semana y lo volví a ver. No estoy segura si le gusto, de seguro no. Mi mente e inseguridad no me dejaban pensar otra cosa, ¿por qué una persona tan maravillosa como el, podría tomarse la molestia de siquiera voltearme a ver? Creo que si le gusto, pero todavía no sé. El viernes iré a su casa con mis amigos, que también son sus amigos. No sé porque me invito, no sé como hablarle o como controlar mis nervios, no sé que me voy a poner, ni se que hacer para gustarle. Tal vez ya le gusto y es penoso como yo. Ya estaba en mi casa, yo solo hablaba con Estefy mi amiga y hablábamos de el; también estaba hablando con el, cuando me llego un mensaje suyo, ¿quieres ir al cine mañana? No me acuerdo la ultima vez que me emocione tanto por un mensaje así. Y así transcurrieron 2 meses de estar saliendo, de estar conociendo a esa maravillosa persona que todos deberían de conocer. No sé que hice para gustarle, no sé que hice para merecerlo. Pero se porque Dios me mando a un angelito como el. Porque a pesar de todo, a pesar de ser tan penosa e insegura, si de algo estoy segura es de la capacidad que tengo que querer. Una persona como el merece todo el amor del mundo, y aunque estoy segura que se merece a alguien mejor haré lo posible para ser aunque sea un poquito como esa persona que el merece.
1 de Mayo del 2013, 10:35 pm. ¿Quieres ser mi novia?
Creo que toda mi vida soñé con encontrar a ese alguien, que solo con verlo me hace sonreír, a esa persona que me puede hacer reír a esa persona con la que puedo ser yo misma sin tener miedo a que va a pensar, esa persona que da los mejores abrazos en los momentos mas indicados (siempre), no puedo ni explicar como me hace sentir, me hace querer ser la mejor persona del mundo, me hace querer hacer todo para ver otra vez esa risa y esa sonrisa, esa persona que me enseña mas de lo que se imagina, esa persona que me hace querer subir el Everest corriendo si el quiere nieve de ahí arriba, esa persona en la que me levanto pensando y en la que me acuesto soñando, el es esa persona que te dan ganas de haberlo conocido antes, esa persona con la que te llevas tan bien, esa persona que mas que tu novio sea tu mejor amigo, esa persona con la que sientas mucha confianza de hacer, decir, lo que quieras, el es esa persona que siempre soñé, el es esa persona para la que hice esa carta hace mucho llamada "dear future boyfriend"; el es esa persona que tanto espere y por fin encontré. Es esa persona que entre mas lo conoces mas te dices a ti misma, es el.
Y me siento tan feliz de ser esa persona afortunada a la que el por alguna razón escogió. Voy a hacer todo lo posible para que estemos siempre juntos, para que nunca te aburras, para que cada día sea diferente, para que siempre tengas la confianza de decirme todo, para que nunca te sientas solo, para ser esa persona para ti que siempre este ahí.
¡Te quiero mucho Joao! Ya sabes lo que significas para mi, espero que, ¡nunca se te olvide! Gracias por ser un ser humano tan maravilloso, nunca dejes de ser la persona que eres.
Tenía 2 meses de estar saliendo con el, y estoy segura que el se dio cuenta desde el principio cuanto me gusto. 4 semanas antes lo conocí, lo conocí, mas bien lo volví a conocer y pensé, es el tipo de chavo que vale la pena, es el tipo de chavo que ni me voltea a ver. No sé ni como explicar como empece a sentir todo esto por el, tal vez porque al siguiente fin de semana lo volví a ver. Llego a mi casa para la sorpresa de tener un mensaje en facebook, "¿Tienes whatsapp?". No sé, desde ese domingo en la mañana empezamos a platicar y platicar, siempre he sido esa persona que no se abre tan fácilmente, y esa persona que no confía en casi nadie. Pero había algo diferente en el y estaba en lo correcto. Me deje llevar, siendo yo misma. Paso una semana y lo volví a ver. No estoy segura si le gusto, de seguro no. Mi mente e inseguridad no me dejaban pensar otra cosa, ¿por qué una persona tan maravillosa como el, podría tomarse la molestia de siquiera voltearme a ver? Creo que si le gusto, pero todavía no sé. El viernes iré a su casa con mis amigos, que también son sus amigos. No sé porque me invito, no sé como hablarle o como controlar mis nervios, no sé que me voy a poner, ni se que hacer para gustarle. Tal vez ya le gusto y es penoso como yo. Ya estaba en mi casa, yo solo hablaba con Estefy mi amiga y hablábamos de el; también estaba hablando con el, cuando me llego un mensaje suyo, ¿quieres ir al cine mañana? No me acuerdo la ultima vez que me emocione tanto por un mensaje así. Y así transcurrieron 2 meses de estar saliendo, de estar conociendo a esa maravillosa persona que todos deberían de conocer. No sé que hice para gustarle, no sé que hice para merecerlo. Pero se porque Dios me mando a un angelito como el. Porque a pesar de todo, a pesar de ser tan penosa e insegura, si de algo estoy segura es de la capacidad que tengo que querer. Una persona como el merece todo el amor del mundo, y aunque estoy segura que se merece a alguien mejor haré lo posible para ser aunque sea un poquito como esa persona que el merece.
1 de Mayo del 2013, 10:35 pm. ¿Quieres ser mi novia?
Creo que toda mi vida soñé con encontrar a ese alguien, que solo con verlo me hace sonreír, a esa persona que me puede hacer reír a esa persona con la que puedo ser yo misma sin tener miedo a que va a pensar, esa persona que da los mejores abrazos en los momentos mas indicados (siempre), no puedo ni explicar como me hace sentir, me hace querer ser la mejor persona del mundo, me hace querer hacer todo para ver otra vez esa risa y esa sonrisa, esa persona que me enseña mas de lo que se imagina, esa persona que me hace querer subir el Everest corriendo si el quiere nieve de ahí arriba, esa persona en la que me levanto pensando y en la que me acuesto soñando, el es esa persona que te dan ganas de haberlo conocido antes, esa persona con la que te llevas tan bien, esa persona que mas que tu novio sea tu mejor amigo, esa persona con la que sientas mucha confianza de hacer, decir, lo que quieras, el es esa persona que siempre soñé, el es esa persona para la que hice esa carta hace mucho llamada "dear future boyfriend"; el es esa persona que tanto espere y por fin encontré. Es esa persona que entre mas lo conoces mas te dices a ti misma, es el.
Y me siento tan feliz de ser esa persona afortunada a la que el por alguna razón escogió. Voy a hacer todo lo posible para que estemos siempre juntos, para que nunca te aburras, para que cada día sea diferente, para que siempre tengas la confianza de decirme todo, para que nunca te sientas solo, para ser esa persona para ti que siempre este ahí.
¡Te quiero mucho Joao! Ya sabes lo que significas para mi, espero que, ¡nunca se te olvide! Gracias por ser un ser humano tan maravilloso, nunca dejes de ser la persona que eres.
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
What if I died right now... What if I lived forever...
I guess it's a common thought, what if I died right now... Who would cry? Who would go to my funeral? Who wouldn't care at all? What if I did nothing with my life? What if I people don't remember me, because I gave them nothing to remember? What if...
I guess those are some of the questions I will never know, just like I will never know a bunch of other things. What I'm doing with my life, what I am doing so people will remember me? what I am doing to leave something good in people? What if the whole point of it, it's not that people remember what I did or who I were... Then what's the point of it then, doing it for myself? So I can leave for 80 years only for ME, then die and leave nothing here. What's the point of living and dying? Is it finding true love, getting married and having children? Is it making all my dreams come true? Is it living for others, like Mother Theresa? Is it just living... ? Or just existing? What's the difference? What makes a person living his life or existing in his life. What's true happiness?
I guess I don't know this questions, because I didn't even knew how to ask. But what's really the whole point of it? Who really knows what's the point of life? Or what's the meaning?
I guess it will always be one of the biggest doubts of a lot of persons here. And I suppose everyone has their own answer too. What's mine? I'm almost 20 years old and I don't know what I am here for...
I might not know that, but I know what my dreams are...
I want to marry someone I couldn't get tired of being with him and someone I love with all my heart, someone that's also my best friend and my love. I want to marry someone I wake up next to everyday with a smile, knowing I'm the luckiest woman on earth to have a husband like him. And knowing there's no one else I'd rather share my life with.
I want to have kids one day, I know I will love them with all my heart and I will do everything to make them happy and see their dreams come true. I want to try to show someone what life is about, when they will actually show it to me without knowing it.
I want to be a teacher, more than teaching I want to educate. I want kids or people to learn from me, I want to at least leave something in them. I want to help every kid I have, that doesn't have the support and love they need, I want to give it to them. Because every kid deserves to be loved and to be encouraged in their dreams.
I want to make my dreams come true, I want to make the things in my bucket list.
I want to make my parents proud, I want to give in return at least a little bit of what the have given to me.
I want to still be friends with my siblings, and not having family fights. I want us to still be the strong and unite family we are. I want us to still be silly and still share moments and things.
I don't know what the meaning of life is, but I want to leave with a big smile and a open heart.
I guess those are some of the questions I will never know, just like I will never know a bunch of other things. What I'm doing with my life, what I am doing so people will remember me? what I am doing to leave something good in people? What if the whole point of it, it's not that people remember what I did or who I were... Then what's the point of it then, doing it for myself? So I can leave for 80 years only for ME, then die and leave nothing here. What's the point of living and dying? Is it finding true love, getting married and having children? Is it making all my dreams come true? Is it living for others, like Mother Theresa? Is it just living... ? Or just existing? What's the difference? What makes a person living his life or existing in his life. What's true happiness?
I guess I don't know this questions, because I didn't even knew how to ask. But what's really the whole point of it? Who really knows what's the point of life? Or what's the meaning?
I guess it will always be one of the biggest doubts of a lot of persons here. And I suppose everyone has their own answer too. What's mine? I'm almost 20 years old and I don't know what I am here for...
I might not know that, but I know what my dreams are...
I want to marry someone I couldn't get tired of being with him and someone I love with all my heart, someone that's also my best friend and my love. I want to marry someone I wake up next to everyday with a smile, knowing I'm the luckiest woman on earth to have a husband like him. And knowing there's no one else I'd rather share my life with.
I want to have kids one day, I know I will love them with all my heart and I will do everything to make them happy and see their dreams come true. I want to try to show someone what life is about, when they will actually show it to me without knowing it.
I want to be a teacher, more than teaching I want to educate. I want kids or people to learn from me, I want to at least leave something in them. I want to help every kid I have, that doesn't have the support and love they need, I want to give it to them. Because every kid deserves to be loved and to be encouraged in their dreams.
I want to make my dreams come true, I want to make the things in my bucket list.
I want to make my parents proud, I want to give in return at least a little bit of what the have given to me.
I want to still be friends with my siblings, and not having family fights. I want us to still be the strong and unite family we are. I want us to still be silly and still share moments and things.
I don't know what the meaning of life is, but I want to leave with a big smile and a open heart.
Those things I'll never say
I've always been that shy, quiet girl. Of course I've never been the center of attention, or the smartest girl, or the prettiest and of course not the one with the best clothes.
I've always been Sandra, jeans, converse and a t-shirt, and a shy smile. Of course I like to wear cute clothes when I hang out, but also I've never been the popular girl that hangs out a lot, so when I brought my clothes the last time, I brought a lot of clothes because I needed them and I brought, jeans, concert t-shirts, t-shirts, etc. And I do have some cute t-shirts, but enough to the amount of time I hang out. I never thought I would ever get the attention of someone I actually like, and actually have dates and hang out every weekend.
And I know my sisters hate I ask them too much for their clothes. But I never really saw him coming, I never saw coming someone I would actually like to look like the prettiest girl even thought I know I'm not. But sure I will look better in their clothes, than in mine. Mine are for school. And I regret the amount of t-shirts I brought, but I can't change that.
The last time I asked my sister something and she said no, because she was tired of me asking her things when all I brought was different kind of clothes. I started crying because I wanted to tell her how I felt, she had have attention of guys since she is 15. Not me. So I never thought I would need it, at least not now. I thought I would actually get that summer job and I could brought clothes there. But it didn't happened, I'm broke and I just have t-shirts I won't wear with him, because I know that I'm not pretty, and they definitely make me look less pretty. And I never cared because I felt comfortable, I never cared until I met someone I actually like and care a lot. And I just don't want to lose him, because I'm not pretty.
But of course I'll never tell my sister's this. Because like always I'll be making myself "the victim". I just kind want they would understand, those things I'll never say. I guess that if I never say them out loud, nobody will understand. And of course I won't tell him, because he will say "I look good with everything", when I know I'm not. And I don't want him to know I don't believe him when he says I'm beautiful or pretty.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Writers...
Writers are forgetful,
but they remember everything.
They forget appointments and anniversaries,
but remember what you wore,
how you smelled,
on your first date…
They remember every story you've ever told them -
like ever,
but forget what you've just said.
They don’t remember to water the plants
or take out the trash,
but they don’t forget how
to make you laugh.
Writers are forgetful
because
they’re busy
remembering
the important things.
I know that just because I write on a blog it doesn't means I'm a writer, but I really related to this, I felt like it described me.
but they remember everything.
They forget appointments and anniversaries,
but remember what you wore,
how you smelled,
on your first date…
They remember every story you've ever told them -
like ever,
but forget what you've just said.
They don’t remember to water the plants
or take out the trash,
but they don’t forget how
to make you laugh.
Writers are forgetful
because
they’re busy
remembering
the important things.
I know that just because I write on a blog it doesn't means I'm a writer, but I really related to this, I felt like it described me.
Saturday, March 30, 2013
"A letter to myself and anyone else that might need it"
I saw this on tumblr and I really thought I should had this here too. I really liked it and I hope I always remember this to myself.
87/365 - Drops Of Jupiter
a letter to myself and anyone else that might need it
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
The perks of being a wallflower
When I first saw this movie I ended up crying and happy at the same time, I had a lot of mixed feelings inside, but I guess one of the biggest one was how related I felt with this movie. I don't know why I felt so related if I've never been in those situations. I'm really shy and I do the same in class, even I know the answer I don't participate. When I'm around so many people I'm quiet, and I usually think all the things I write later. I have a few friends, but I know the ones I have are real. And how I ALWAYS look for anybody but me, I'd rather people to be happy than making me happy. And I have those thoughts too. Those kind of thoughts when you just start crying, remembering things you don't want to remember, and thinking "please stop, just stop" but they don't stop, so you look for an alternative for that pain inside. I know how it feels. I saw that movie again today, and even I don't relate to some of that things anymore, like the thoughts. I'm happy now, I'm making myself happy for me, not for others.
I remember like 5 months ago my mom asked me if I wanted to see a psychologist because she was seeing me "too sad for my age", I just said... "okay, yes" but that never really happened, and I'm much better now, and I know I learned things get better. You just need to hang out more often with your friends, go for a walk sometimes, sing really loud in the car, watch movies, brought clothes, meet new people, spend more time in green areas, give things for the people that need it, I don't know I never talked about that with my mom again. But I have to say I'm really proud of myself of that, because I guess I saved myself. That's why I like the quote "I'm my own hero" because I know I am. 2012 wasn't my best year, but I really learned a lot. Like what do I want to do, what makes me happy, who really cares about me, what I deserve, What I don't deserve. And seeing this movie again, after being really sad and now happy, makes me realize how times go so fast. I still relate to that shy guy not participating in class and having a few friends. I'm still a "wallflower". But just to that, because I'm not the person I was 6 months ago, I'm better. And I sure don't have the thoughts I had 6 months ago, they are happier.
I have flashbacks from time to time, that still hurt me and makes me stop for a little. But then I see all these amazing people in my life right now, and I know it's not worth just a second to stop. "because life doesn't stop for anybody." I'm happy to look back at the things that happened and realize all made me how I am and mostly made me stronger.
I had saved a draft when I fist saw the movie, with the quotes I liked or I related to.
I remember like 5 months ago my mom asked me if I wanted to see a psychologist because she was seeing me "too sad for my age", I just said... "okay, yes" but that never really happened, and I'm much better now, and I know I learned things get better. You just need to hang out more often with your friends, go for a walk sometimes, sing really loud in the car, watch movies, brought clothes, meet new people, spend more time in green areas, give things for the people that need it, I don't know I never talked about that with my mom again. But I have to say I'm really proud of myself of that, because I guess I saved myself. That's why I like the quote "I'm my own hero" because I know I am. 2012 wasn't my best year, but I really learned a lot. Like what do I want to do, what makes me happy, who really cares about me, what I deserve, What I don't deserve. And seeing this movie again, after being really sad and now happy, makes me realize how times go so fast. I still relate to that shy guy not participating in class and having a few friends. I'm still a "wallflower". But just to that, because I'm not the person I was 6 months ago, I'm better. And I sure don't have the thoughts I had 6 months ago, they are happier.
I have flashbacks from time to time, that still hurt me and makes me stop for a little. But then I see all these amazing people in my life right now, and I know it's not worth just a second to stop. "because life doesn't stop for anybody." I'm happy to look back at the things that happened and realize all made me how I am and mostly made me stronger.
I had saved a draft when I fist saw the movie, with the quotes I liked or I related to.
- So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.
- I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have.
- If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don't want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it too. I want them to be able to do whatever they want around me.
- She was sad, though. But it was a hopeful kind of sad. The kind of sad that just takes time.
- Things change. And friends leave. And life doesn't stop for anybody.
- I don’t know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
- And the people in the photographs always seem a lot happier than you are.
- You see things. You keep quiet about them. And you understand. You’re a wallflower.
- We accept the love we think we deserve.
- I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn't try to sleep with people even if they could have. I need to know that these people exist.
- So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.
Monday, March 18, 2013
I understand now...
I understand now why sometimes things don't go the way we want, it's because they really will get better.
I understand now why people leave and break your heart, it's because you deserve better and someone really special will come along and make you feel unique. It will not matter who were before or who broke your heart, because the person right now it's the best and nothing else matters.
I understand now why people keep on saying "things will get better", it's because it's true, thing do get better. You just have to believe it.
I understand now that you can miss someone that lives 20 minutes away from your house.
I understand now what it feels like when you're with someone and time just goes by so fast and you have no idea how or why it happened, you just want to slow it down and enjoy the moment with that person.
I understand now that you can miss someone in just one second.
I understand now that somethings are meant to happen.
I understand now how it feels to look at someone and really be fully happy, how it feel to look at this amazing person and knowing the way you feel is the same way he feels. I understand it now and it's one of the best feelings ever.
I understand now why people leave and break your heart, it's because you deserve better and someone really special will come along and make you feel unique. It will not matter who were before or who broke your heart, because the person right now it's the best and nothing else matters.
I understand now why people keep on saying "things will get better", it's because it's true, thing do get better. You just have to believe it.
I understand now that you can miss someone that lives 20 minutes away from your house.
I understand now what it feels like when you're with someone and time just goes by so fast and you have no idea how or why it happened, you just want to slow it down and enjoy the moment with that person.
I understand now that you can miss someone in just one second.
I understand now that somethings are meant to happen.
I understand now how it feels to look at someone and really be fully happy, how it feel to look at this amazing person and knowing the way you feel is the same way he feels. I understand it now and it's one of the best feelings ever.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
I'm not a failure
If I look back at the things I really wanted and I worked so hard to get, I would probably get disappointed because I didn't get most of them. But also in most of them I'm 100% sure I did and gave the best of me and all I could do. I've always thought that my biggest failure would be "cadena" (is kind of girl scouts), I worked so hard in my courses and I tried to make people like me, but still I didn't got in a higher level. If I think about the good thing about that it's that I learned a lot about team-work, camping and I made true friends. I was talking with some of them and they told me something I didn't knew and I sure wasn't expecting. One girl wanted me to work with her. It's kind of complicated to explain, but I worked so hard to get there. Every summer or winter when a camp was over I begged my mom to go to the end because I always thought "maybe this is my time". I always ended up disappointed and sad, thinking maybe the next one. Or maybe it's because I'm not funny as them or because I'm as social as them. But my friends told me she really wanted to choose me, but the older leaders didn't let her.. My friend told me she cried because she was so mad.. they got in a fight because of why they wouldn't let me.. At the end they had the last word, another girl got the chance, and that was my last camp. I always thought I failed so hard there, because I took all the courses and one includes making a big book, like a thesis and I did it.
But I didn't failed, because I made true friends, I learned valuable things and know I know that if I didn't got what I wanted it wasn't because my effort wasn't enough, because someone thought it was enough to fight for it. But in the end destiny had the last word, know I know it was the right one.
I'm not a failure because he quit, because I quit when he did. I never stopped trying until he did, and I realized I had no choice. It wasn't because of me, or because of how I looked or anything, it was him that made the choice to stop fighting for what I thought was worth the fight. Now I know it wasn't worth it at all. And I'm glad he did what he did because I finally realized I deserve better and I deserve someone that will fight for me, because I know I'm worth that.
Life really gave us valuable lessons everyday, some of them might make us feel sad, worthless, stupid and it might make us want to be someone else. But I have to believe that for every bad thing that happens a better and good one will happen next, so you can realize then why things happened the way they did. Whenever something doesn't go like I expect to, it's not a reason to be sad, it's a reason to be faithful that something bigger and better is coming. Here I am being faithful, because I know what my hard work and good heart will bring.
But I didn't failed, because I made true friends, I learned valuable things and know I know that if I didn't got what I wanted it wasn't because my effort wasn't enough, because someone thought it was enough to fight for it. But in the end destiny had the last word, know I know it was the right one.
I'm not a failure because he quit, because I quit when he did. I never stopped trying until he did, and I realized I had no choice. It wasn't because of me, or because of how I looked or anything, it was him that made the choice to stop fighting for what I thought was worth the fight. Now I know it wasn't worth it at all. And I'm glad he did what he did because I finally realized I deserve better and I deserve someone that will fight for me, because I know I'm worth that.
Life really gave us valuable lessons everyday, some of them might make us feel sad, worthless, stupid and it might make us want to be someone else. But I have to believe that for every bad thing that happens a better and good one will happen next, so you can realize then why things happened the way they did. Whenever something doesn't go like I expect to, it's not a reason to be sad, it's a reason to be faithful that something bigger and better is coming. Here I am being faithful, because I know what my hard work and good heart will bring.
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