It's 4:08 am

It's 4:08 am, I can't sleep again.. And when I can't sleep my mind just spin around and thinks about everything. Honestly lately my mind has been every where and thinking about everything. So I'd like to say about my day, today...


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I needed to wake up at 6, because I let my sister in school, then my mom in work. I needed the van because I needed to go to my high school for some papers I will need for college. So I wake up and as always the first thing I do I check my phone, I asked Josh 1 last thing. He said yes. It made me feel sad, because even I already knew, I realized it was done, it was over, and this time will be forever... That made cry, I didn't wanted to end thing like this. I didn't even wanted it to end. We can't always get what we want. I told my mom I was just tried for waking up so early. When I came to my house again, I tried to sleep, I had like 3 dreams. Then I needed to go for the papers I needed, pick up my sister and then my mom. When I was paying for the papers, there was a guy next to me... This is what happened.

"Lady: So what was your plan for college? (because there are like 2 types in my school)

him: emmmm I don't know... (most jerk voice ever)

Lady: well what was your student number...

him: ashh I don't remember...

Lady: well can you give me your last name so I can look for it..

him: yes.. that's why I'm here.. sigh

Lady: here it's your student number.. blabla

him:.. okay (and he left without a thank you)"

Maybe he was having a bad day, maybe something really bad just happened to him, but that doesn't give anyone the right to treat someone bad. The woman was just doing her work, and she treated him nice, at least he could had said thank you. Treat others as you'd like to be treated. 

Then I look for my sister, I brought a soda and we went to the car and go to my mom's work.

Then when I came home, we ate. The food has so much onion, I don't like it at all. But I was eating. I wonder how many people didn't ate today, and would kill for what I ate today. Be thankful for what you have, you never know when you will lose it. I wished I could help all the people that are hungry, eating should be a law, in every country. Anyone shouldn't be hungry.

Then I toke a nap, I was just falling asleep, when my brother wake me up. He said he needed me to drive with him (him in his car, me in my mom van) to home depot, because he needed furniture and the space of 1 car won't be enough. I went with him. He said I drive too slowy. Then we were there, he pick up one. A worker there helped us. He didn't had 1 arm. He worked there, helping people pick up heavy stuff, and he didn't had 1 arm. And sometimes I complain I'm tired, and I'm too weak. Be thankful for what you are, and learn from who are equal to us having less.

I was helping my brother get the furniture in his car, and he said maybe I didn't needed another car... I thought of my nap.. Then he said, but I needed to be talking and annoying someone right?.. That made me smile, sometimes I feel he don't likes to be around me because I was annoying him. Then we went to another store, and brought another furniture. I stayed all day doing random stuff. Then I was on tumblr. And he told me, to come with him to print some stuff for my mom. I was like... okay. Then when we get in the car, he said something like I only asked because it were you. I smiled, he likes my company. Then we talked about different things. And I realized something I already knew. My family, not only him. All of them are so so so special. Everyone of them have something, that makes them unique and make me lucky. To call him daddy, mommy, brother, sisters... My family is a blessing, and I wouldn't change them for anything. And I don't know what I'd do without any of them. What take me to the people that had lost someone of their family. I really admire each one of you. If it would be possible I'd like to share mine. With anyone. The family will always be the most important, it's what made you who you are and where did you came from. It's the most special thing in life, you didn't choose them, and sometimes you might feel like you don't belong, but you do. And if they are not here anymore, you did. And they stay live in your heart, forever. Ohana.
My grandma it's going to be 80 in october, so my aunt it's making her an album with pictures of all of us and a personal message from us. My uncle had a dificult years. I know it's hard for him. But I know it's harder for my cousins. It's a whole story I won't tell. It just broke my heart when I read what my cousin wrote for my grandma. He is 15. He wrote something like "thank you for taking care of me and my brother, I miss you, I miss my aunts, I miss my cousins, I miss my dad. Thank you for always being there when we really needed you, you are a great woman." When they were little they came often to my house because their parents had weddings or stuff. So they stayed the night. I can't even imagine how they are feeling. They are 2 guys of 13 and 15. And sometimes I complain about something, I complain about how I feel with my family. I just want to see them, and give them a hug. I never thought they would had to deal with something like this. I hope they know I miss them too. And I will always be there for them. Stay strong, you are a fighter and I admire you both. Nothing last forever, problems are just for a while.